It's literally just one of those days, or must I say it's one of those weeks. I don't know what's going on, I don't feel like myself, I don't find myself happy, I have no energy to do anything, and I feel plain old miserable. I haven't felt this way in a long time. I happen to sit and not be able to think about anything, it's as if my mind is empty inside, as if I have no feelings, no caring for much. This really isn't the person I am but something just doesn't feel right, sometimes I feel as if everything is coming down upon me. I barely smile as I used to, I barely talk as much as I used to. This is a sign that some changes have to be made and I'm just not getting the hints, are there new chapters in my life that must be explored? Am I to to naive to accept that things aren't suppose to be the way they are? Give me a sign.


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Thought

He's a man that doesn't make me his life, but a man that has his own life and chooses to involve me in it.

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Random

Growing up I remembered seeing a old school around my neighborhood, which happens to be P.S 186. All my childhood I heard stories of this school being burnt down and having the famous folktale of bloody Mary occur in it's location. As children we seem to believe all we hear. As I sat on the BX 19 heading to work, I decide to "google" the history of the school. Amazedly I learned reasons why the school had not been reconstructed. This school was not burnt as I thought ,but closed after about 30 years of being up and running. The school was open in 1903 and closed its doors because parents request. I thought it was pretty interesting how we have many structures in our neighborhood but know nothing about its history.

Enjoy!























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Valentine day

I'm not a fan of valentine days, mostly because I believe that everyday should be "I love you day". It sucks when people show their significant other love only on that day. It has been a few years now, and I must say, this has been one of the few times where I've celebrated valentine day. My boyfriend and I are going on to two years, and the first year I refused to do anything. I didn't want to celebrate because I'm a strong believer that it's a useless day, but mainly because I was unsure about where things would end with us. As this year came around and valentine day soon approached, I decide that the person I'm with will be with me for a long time. I dislike when people decide to get their love ones flowers and a dinner and call it a day, so I decide to do things a little different this time. Why not kidnap my boyfriend and take him somewhere different? And I did as planned, I took him to Delaware where he would experience Kevin hart, one of the funniest comedian out, boy was he surprised. The smile he had was priceless. Those are the moments that make it worth a while, the drive there was great and the drive back was as good. It gave us some "us" time as well as a great day together with nobody bothering us.

Happy valentine day to you and yours, remember it shouldn't always be on one day, but everyday.



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Lucky

My sister is in Spain isn't she lucky. I hope she has the time of her life. I remember when I want to join the Peace corp, and unfortunately I did not. I believe it would have been a great experience as well as a great time to help those around us. Well at least I'm playing a great role in the children I see from day to day.

Can't ask for more!
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Happy New Year 2011

Happy New Years to you and your family. May this year bring you everything you ask for.










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2010

I've just arrived from being out with my sisters and cousins. I must say, I enjoyed having some girl time and being able to express myself without being judged. As we spoke and sipped on drinks, I could only think about 2010 and everything that occurred in it, both good and bad, happy and sad, and I must say, I enjoyed it all. As we all know, there are a few things I wish I could take back, but baby Jesus knows what he does and why he does it. This year gave me the opportunity to meet new people as well as embark old love. Along with the happiness comes pain. When I was in the deepest of my sorrows, you were there to pick me up, you were my back bone without knowing it, and for that I thank you. I'm glad you came back into my life when you did, exactly what should have been back in 2007. My family loves you, friends adore you, sorry I can't say the same about yours, but you're my dream come true.

This year gave me the strength to put my pass aside and move on to the present. This year gave me a new look at life,made me appreciate a lot more in life.

Good bye 2010, you've been good to me, let's hope 2011 is been better- let the hatred continue, because there's nothing I can't overcome.

Out with the old, in with the new.


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“If two people are meant for each other, it doesn’t mean they have to be together right now… but they will eventually”



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Happy holiday

Merry Christmas and happy holidays to everyone. I hope you enjoy these days with family and friends, I know I did. Stay warm and enjoy.



















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21!

Happy birthday to my tiny little baby sister Nisida. Boy has that nickname stuck to you. I hope you get everything you ask for, I love you thug life!


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Lately, all I've been doing is thinking and thinking. This usually happens when something unexpected is going to happen, or when something bad is going to happen. Let's just say that I'm in a point in life where I feel very happy, but at times I find myself asking myself questions where I have no answers to. Is this a sign or something, will I see somebody soon, will I be expecting goods news, will everything I been praying for months come true? Whatever it is I hope it comes soon. I'm ready for some change in my life, I'm ready to take it all however it comes to me. On another note, thanks god the holidays are almost done and over with.


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My girl

Makes me think of childhood



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Life is too short

R.I.P Padrino Pedro.
It's sad to see people you love leave your side. It was the other day he was diagnosed with Cancer. He was strong and able to bare with it, until everything failed on him. It must be hard to know that you have something that can soon take you away from your love ones. It was all after a operation, where he started to get worst. Imagine not knowing who everybody around you is, it must be hard. This was a ongoing long battle, but as they say, nothing is forever. You'll always be remembered.

As the saying goes "It is what it is"

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Hobby

Reality is, I have no time to watch tv. With a full time job, part time grad student, full time girlfriend, its nearly impossible to sit and dedicate a hour to television. Jacob and I have started what we call a new "obsession". This obsession is Dexter. The only show I've dedicated my time to was Lost, which was a hell of a great show. I've always want to watch Dexter, but I didn't have the person to watch it with. Less than two weeks into this and Jacob and I have finish two sessions, we now patiently await to get our hand on session 3.

Stuck on the screen!!













Codey and Jacob!

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Letting go

Let's face it, life comes with many complication and drama, it's a matter of handling it correctly. I'm not one to speak about being perfect and not being perfect, because baby Jesus knows I've been a bad girl. I'm not saying I've been a bad girl in the sense that I've killed, because I'm not Dexter, but I can say I would never take back the bad I've done. There are many people whom have said, I wish I didn't, I wish I could have, or I wish I would, but not I. I believe all my mistakes, and disappointments have made me who I am today. I can't sit here and think of playing the right card nor doing the right thing. One thing I can guarantee you is that those whom have made my life miserable will soon pay the price, everybody from friends, ex boyfriend, home wreckers, and miserable person.

It's a mean world out there.

Fact

Your heart is made up almost entirely of muscle. It is strong enough to lift approximately 3,000 pounds, roughly the weight of a compact car.

(pretty cool if you ask me)


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