2010

I've just arrived from being out with my sisters and cousins. I must say, I enjoyed having some girl time and being able to express myself without being judged. As we spoke and sipped on drinks, I could only think about 2010 and everything that occurred in it, both good and bad, happy and sad, and I must say, I enjoyed it all. As we all know, there are a few things I wish I could take back, but baby Jesus knows what he does and why he does it. This year gave me the opportunity to meet new people as well as embark old love. Along with the happiness comes pain. When I was in the deepest of my sorrows, you were there to pick me up, you were my back bone without knowing it, and for that I thank you. I'm glad you came back into my life when you did, exactly what should have been back in 2007. My family loves you, friends adore you, sorry I can't say the same about yours, but you're my dream come true.

This year gave me the strength to put my pass aside and move on to the present. This year gave me a new look at life,made me appreciate a lot more in life.

Good bye 2010, you've been good to me, let's hope 2011 is been better- let the hatred continue, because there's nothing I can't overcome.

Out with the old, in with the new.


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“If two people are meant for each other, it doesn’t mean they have to be together right now… but they will eventually”



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Happy holiday

Merry Christmas and happy holidays to everyone. I hope you enjoy these days with family and friends, I know I did. Stay warm and enjoy.



















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21!

Happy birthday to my tiny little baby sister Nisida. Boy has that nickname stuck to you. I hope you get everything you ask for, I love you thug life!


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Lately, all I've been doing is thinking and thinking. This usually happens when something unexpected is going to happen, or when something bad is going to happen. Let's just say that I'm in a point in life where I feel very happy, but at times I find myself asking myself questions where I have no answers to. Is this a sign or something, will I see somebody soon, will I be expecting goods news, will everything I been praying for months come true? Whatever it is I hope it comes soon. I'm ready for some change in my life, I'm ready to take it all however it comes to me. On another note, thanks god the holidays are almost done and over with.


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My girl

Makes me think of childhood



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Life is too short

R.I.P Padrino Pedro.
It's sad to see people you love leave your side. It was the other day he was diagnosed with Cancer. He was strong and able to bare with it, until everything failed on him. It must be hard to know that you have something that can soon take you away from your love ones. It was all after a operation, where he started to get worst. Imagine not knowing who everybody around you is, it must be hard. This was a ongoing long battle, but as they say, nothing is forever. You'll always be remembered.

As the saying goes "It is what it is"

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Hobby

Reality is, I have no time to watch tv. With a full time job, part time grad student, full time girlfriend, its nearly impossible to sit and dedicate a hour to television. Jacob and I have started what we call a new "obsession". This obsession is Dexter. The only show I've dedicated my time to was Lost, which was a hell of a great show. I've always want to watch Dexter, but I didn't have the person to watch it with. Less than two weeks into this and Jacob and I have finish two sessions, we now patiently await to get our hand on session 3.

Stuck on the screen!!













Codey and Jacob!

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Letting go

Let's face it, life comes with many complication and drama, it's a matter of handling it correctly. I'm not one to speak about being perfect and not being perfect, because baby Jesus knows I've been a bad girl. I'm not saying I've been a bad girl in the sense that I've killed, because I'm not Dexter, but I can say I would never take back the bad I've done. There are many people whom have said, I wish I didn't, I wish I could have, or I wish I would, but not I. I believe all my mistakes, and disappointments have made me who I am today. I can't sit here and think of playing the right card nor doing the right thing. One thing I can guarantee you is that those whom have made my life miserable will soon pay the price, everybody from friends, ex boyfriend, home wreckers, and miserable person.

It's a mean world out there.

Fact

Your heart is made up almost entirely of muscle. It is strong enough to lift approximately 3,000 pounds, roughly the weight of a compact car.

(pretty cool if you ask me)


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Miserable

I came across this image, and I couldn't resist and smile about other people's bad habits. It's funny when they believe they're hurting others, but in reality they're only hurting themselves, they're playing a great desperate lonely person role. With that said, do us a favor.





Bam bam itches!!

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My new obsession

Happy birthday baby!


















Kids say the cutest thing. I get to her house to give her a birthday gift, as I say bye, she replies and said "bye Zakiry", I than tell her Airelyn my name is not Zakiry, and she tells me "ah ah okay, bye linda" how can I resist her.
I love you little one
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Makes my day

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Jacob & I

As he would say "Jayz & Beyonce"

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"We don't stop playing because we grow old, We grow old because we stop playing"

It's only Tuesday and I can't wait for this weekend to come. I'm in need of some sleep as well as quality time with my Jacob. We're thinking about going mattress shopping which I find will be pretty exciting. If time permits, ikea wouldn't sound like a bad idea, since Jacob wants to build some shelves. This weekend will be a productive one, the best part of all, I was asked out on a date, by the one and only. Of course you're thinking but aren't you guys already together, but it feels great when your significant other asks you out to places as if it was your first time together.

Night!


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Apparently my boyfriend knows how to put a smile on my face, regardless of whether he came up with the idea, or Noah (from the notebook).

It's hard to believe that one can share such a great relationship with someone through both good and bad times. I know deep down, as well as he knows that there're are plenty who envy what we have, but of course they won't admit it. Little sneaky people, and psycho paths, we're aware of you, but guess what, you won't make nor break us. Ha ha!







My Jacob's email to me throughout the day. How can one not love him!

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Brother Jimmy

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While you're out with your ugly friends, my friends are decent-
Enjoy!




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Location:Broadway,New York,United States

Codey

Love him like my own !!



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I must say, this week has begun as a dull week. I don't know what's wrong, but I'm apparently feeling very blah. It's not that I'm mad at myself, it's not that I'm sad, I'm feeling as I did a while back. That feeling of emptiness, the feeling of being useless in life. I don't understand why these feelings are starting to stir up when everything in my life seems to be going pretty great. I have what many females wish they can have by the age of 22, but there still remains that feeling of emptiness. My Jacob asks what's wrong, and I can't explain. It's a weird feeling, it's one of those feelings I get when something bad is going to happen, or even when unexpected news will come. I don't feel myself, I might be exaggerating, I'm probably just getting sick, but than again I don't know. I have this feeling of wanting to cry, of just wanting to be alone, this isn't me. I barely talk unless it's to my clients, it's just weird. I hope this isn't a sign of depression, because I don't need this right about now.

Mami

It's mami's birthday! Happy Birthday mami. Thanks for being the best woman in the world. I want to wish you many more to come. I do not know where I would be in this world without you. I know I'm not the best in showing emotions when it comes to you, but I don't want to let you know that I do love you and appreciate everything you have done for me. I know life hasn't been the easiest nor has it been the happiest, but I admire you for always be strong when it came to me and my sisters, I admire you for crying in close door so we won't see you. I love you mami, and I promise I'll always keep you happy. Thanks for being calm when you see me crying, although you know all my reason behind it. I love you more than you'll ever know.

Happy Birthday Chellz

Happy Birthday Chellz. I must say it's true what they say, the friends you meet in college will be the one that will stay around the longest. As must of my friendship form, I don't like the female and eventually grow to love them. Summer 06, that's when it all happened, and now we are, four years after-stronger than ever. I must say this is one of the only females whom feels my pain, one of the only females, who lives my life just in a different body, and with different people. She's something like my best friend, soul mate, partner, the person I can call at 4:00 am and will always pick up, the friend whom I can go weeks without talking to and when we talk again it's like no separation ever happened.

I love You Chellz, Happy Birthday babes!

There comes a time when everything will be perfect. It just feels that throughout life, things will constantly repeat themselves. They will repeat whether they're in the same content, with the same person, different, regardless of it all it's bond to happen once more. What better way to say it, than Men will always be men.

One thing that irritates me is when I see toddlers with pacifiers!- the kid is already passed 1! For what reason? Do parents not know that this will affect your child's speech. Ugh ignorant parents.


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Addict to the game

This is how I see my Jacob for half of his life ....

How can I not love my job lol

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Class break- Fruit snack!!!



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Finally

I finally got to it . I'm determined to start blogging. I've been slacking on the blogger app, but here I got it.

Currently in class and can't stop thinking about the future and selfish people in this world. It's pretty amazing to sit down and think about the things you've accomplished in less than a year and all the different opportunity that awaits you. It amazes me the people that can envy you for the things you've achieved in life, I mean 22 and I feel I'm pretty well off, excellent parents, best sisters, the best boyfriend(whom has become my best friend, my little kids, and my Codey boy.
I can't repeat how blessed I am.


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Marymount Manhattan College: It Gets Better =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=miWHp1oxOQg

This too shall pass...

Growing up, adults usually tell us, "you can be anything you put your mind to". I can not stress how important it is to actually believe that you caln do whatever you put your mind to. Throughout my childhood, it was always about being somebody, it would always come down to doing things because of what people would and wouldn't say. My whole life I was concerned with what people would say about me, and what they wouldn't say about me. I can say that at thing point in life, I've amount to be half what many told me I wouldn't be, from friends to family to myself. I remember telling myself, "you can't do that, you're not going to succeed in it". I've learned to understand that I'm perfect at whatever I do. A daughter, sister, girlfriend, leader, follower, etc.

After 22 years of life (which still is pretty young) I have come to understand that we ourselves are the ones who control our fate. We must learn not to dwell on things we do not have control over, as long as you give everything your all, you can't ever be upset at what the outcome. Dedication and a failures are very much needed in able to achieve our goals.

The end. =)

It feels great waking up next to the person you love. I love you Jacob.

Memory Lane...

Moments.

Yari: " You think they know how long roaches have been around?"

Zak: "Who knows, but I know I found a dinosaur the other day"

Lmao...

These are the moments that make my day, the moments that let me know that you were perfect since 07.

"Baby, How did your dinosaur look?"
Like this....

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March 2011

Heat VS Lakers 2010

What can I say? I'm not big on basketball but my boyfriend is, therefore his dream are going to become true on March 10, 2011. I'm pretty sure it's going to be an amazing game, who will win? I hope Lakers! I know he's going to be super excited when this day arrives, apart from it being his dream come true, it's going to be a great feeling knowing I'll be there sharing this day with him. I'm really looking forward to this vacation, we all need it. Miami 2011 here we come!!!

Perfect !

For quite some time, I've wanted a toaster, don't ask me why, it's just one of those things I go to macy's and see with my boyfriend, it's one of those things that I know I don't need but I want. I found the perfect one!

Never too late...

As we all know, I have no time to blog, therefore it took me exactly a month to post birthday pictures up. Here you go! Have fun.

It's probably been exactly more than a month since I've published something on this blog. I mean, I really don't know what to write, my boyfriend writes about things he likes, my sister expresses her feelings, keeps a blog as a journal, but when it comes to me, I don't really find anything amazing about blogging. I'll do it here and there, but I don't think this is something I can get use to.

Off on a better note, I started my new jobs, and must I say, I can't ever complain for going to college. The only scary thing that I think about now that I see myself as an adult, is "do I really want children?" It's such a weird thing to think about, I mean I work with them, and I love them, I would want some of my own some day, but I as well sit down and think about it, do I have what it takes to have children. Before it was all about, having kids, getting married, being a house wife, but as I progress in life, my priority seem to change. I've been trapped in this belief -the only thing that people can't take away from you is everything you learn. I find myself believing this. I mean you can have friends, they can say they love you, and be there forever, which is believable, but at the end of the day, what you have in that little brain of yours is the only thing that can't be taken from you. Your life can be taken away from you with the blink of an eye, so why not try to better yourself as much as you can.

Although I'm working full time, I'm still attending school, graduate level in able to practice speech in Spanish with my clients. My reason for taking this class as a lot to do with getting denied in other areas. I will re apply for my masters in speech, this time with hope of getting accepted. I hope they can see that I can do good in graduate level to then even re considered into their programs again.

O my, now I have to go, til next month. lol

Family

Love them..

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2009

VI.XXVIII.IX

Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.

It's so weird that many people we love are actually in pain and there's nothing you can do. I'm in a point in my life where I'm pretty much as happy as can be. I mean yes I cry from time to time, yes I over look things, but that doesn't mean that I can't put them aside and continue to focus on what makes me happy, what makes me laugh , what makes me not want to give up. Many don't know their purpose in life, but I'm slowly realizing what my purpose is. : )

Jackpot!

He always finds a way to bring a smile to my face. <3

Things to do before I die.

I'm super bored at work, why not think of things I want to do before I die, or so Jacob won't get mad, before I get old.

1. Go skydiving
-I've always been scared to skydive, but slowly my fear is disappearing. I'm pretty sure I'll have the ride of my life , imagine going down 120mph and just thinking this can be the last thing you do lmao... Peep this -Skydiving is statistically safer than scuba diving.







2. Visit the great wall of China

-It consisted of many people to build this wall, from soliders to prisoners, to "normal" people, wouldn't it be great to witness 4163 mile walk which has more than 2000 years of history in it.



3. Visit Africa


I think one of the coolest places where one can go witness both people and animal would be Africa. I have a thing for helping people and love animals in general. I want to go to Africa and spend a week, more or less, just helping people that need help of any source. My parents always say, "tu cree que yo voy a ir para africa quando ay gente en Santo dominigo que los necesitan, tu ta loca." It's not the same though, I'm sick of going to the same place to see "people of need". I want to see something different.

4. Diving with sharks



- This would be a wonderful thing to do, yes I'll be scared but why not do something out of the ordinary. I just feels like something cool to do, being that I can't swim, lmao... o my!

5. Build a house for the needy

-I've always want to be able to build a place where somebody can call their home, but in order for me to do this, I would have to be rich in some way. I would love to have a three story building, where people of need can do, shower, spend the night and pretty much just feel the feeling of belonging somewhere. If building a home wouldn't be possible, I would like to open a foundation to help kids with needs. It's always good to dream. : )


6. Donation
- I want to donate my hair atleast three times before I die, and once I'm dead, : ( I want to donate my organs to those that need it.


I'm pretty sure I want to do alot more things, but I'm all fried up and about to leave work! yay!