Thursday, July 15, 2010

There are currently so many resource out there to help our children, but there seems to be a lack of resources that tells parents about their rights and what not. The best part of it all is that its FREE, yes Free! The agency I work for is so busy, and it amazes me the many families that we're currently helping. We have everything from service coordinators, to early interventions, to seit, to aid with rent, money help, you name it and we have it.

I can go on and on about this, but let's not get to carried away, it's just feels like home to work somewhere where I know an impact is taking place. There's no better feeling one can get then to know that you're helping somebody else with something they need help in.

blush

After a few days of arguing, and a few days of no constant communication, he asks the questions " Would you move in with me?" ahhh probably thought he would ask me to marry him huh? lmao...

Well before I jump off on tangents, it kind of made me blush, not because he asked me to move in with him but more because it was a new flash that I am a adult and things will only get harder from now on. I will have to make decisions which will effect me in many different ways, I will have to do things on my own, as in paying for stuff and not depend on my parents. It's not that I don't love him or that I don't want to move in with him, I would actually love to, it'll be something new, but I don't have to carry my burden over to my new place. I would like to be debt free, at least somewhat as well as some what a little more independent. Maybe in a year or so.. : )

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Never been so stressed as I am now... sucks when people just don't understand where you're coming from, it's not about playing the victim, it's about seeing what's in front of you. Whenever one is happy there has to be other factors to mess it up. Will I be able to maintain, will I be able to deal with all the drama.

Always remember, you have the upper hand with everybody else, but I'm owner of his heart.

Taking it a day at a time. Forever young, live stress free.

Monday, July 12, 2010

Memory lane






















Satisfaction

"One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure it's worth watching"

As I look back, time does fly. I remember being younger and it feels as if it was yesterday. Life flashes with the blink on an eye. My intentions when I turned on the computer to blog was to write about people's dissatisfaction, but I'm not quite sure where this blog is going to take me. Being younger I remember being a difficult child, not necessarily because I did bad things, but because I had a hard time in school, I remember spacing out, which still occurs and I must say, it's something I love about myself. When people think I'm not listening, that's when I'm paying the most attention. Throughout life, I've always been the sister to get made fun of the most "she's always spaced out,never proves read her work, she's never listening, she likes the "ghetto" guys, bla bla bla. I must say that I'm pretty happy for everything I've amount at this point in time.

I'm in a stage where I pretty much let life pass me by, I try not to stress situation, I would never change anything I've experienced in life. All my experience have made me the person I am now, almost failing the first grade, always having a harder time in school understanding concept, being hurt my other others, being back stabbed, being loved, the tears, I don't regret them at all.

Everyday that passes by, I ask baby Jesus to let me become a better person inside and out, not that I'm not a great person. From time to time, I feel that I'm not able to satisfy everybody in my life, many complain that I spend too much time with certain individuals, others complain that I don't let others play their role, I just feel that I will never satisfy anybody. As a individual I feel that I have satisfy myself in many different levels. I ask baby Jesus to give me the chance to help other, and as life passes me by, I believe I will impact life. "Do you remember your first grade teacher?" I want to be that person people will always remember.

Brooklyn Museum

Our interest in going to the Brooklyn Museum was to see the Andy Warhol: The last Decade exhibit, and I must say the experience was great. We were able to witness this exhibit as well as other ones they had. The Andy Warhol was "exciting" but I feel that it didn't have much of his work, but I do understand that we came to see his work from a certain era, but still, it was a good time.
I must say that one of my favorite exhibition was "Decorative Arts and Period rooms". This collection is housed on the fourth floor of the museum. It's main focus is a group of twenty-three American rooms ranging from the seventeenth century to the twentieth century. The collection was displayed ranging from American and European decorative arts.


It was a while worth Sunday.

Friday, July 9, 2010

Miami Heat

Before my Jacob, I had no interest in any sports, but being that he loves basketball why not try and understand what's going on. (or try to be cool for him)

So National Basketball superstar Lebron James has been the most sought free agent of the 2010 off-season. He announced yesterday, Thursday, that he will leave Cleveland Cavaliers and play next season for the Miami Heat. Finally I'll be able to walk the streets without having people talk about Lebron's decisions and what not.

"I'm going to take my talents to South Beach and join the Miami Heat" - pretty cool lol

Change is always good, he's played in Cleveland for seven years, and as he stated "I feel like this is going to give me the best opportunity to win. And to win for multiple years,"

"And not only just to win in the regular season or just win five games in a row or three games in a row. I want to win championships. And I feel I can compete down there."


In Miami Heat he will join two good friends, Dwayne Wade and Chis Bosh. Lebron stated that this was enough to convince him to switch teams.

Death

"If the people we love are stolen from us, the way to have them live on is to never stop loving them. Buildings burn, people die, but real love is forever"

Yesterday I attend a funeral home, and I must say it was pretty sad, not that going to funerals aren't sad. I myself didn't get to meet this special individual when she was still living, but from the stories I heard yesterday, she was a great person inside and out.

My main reason in attending was to be by my Jacob in his time of need, and to pay my respect to his friends Ariel and Ernie. Ariel recently got married and moved on to Florida, therefore Ernie was the "to go" person when Mayra needed assistance. I must say, he played his role right. He wasn't just her nephew, he was beyond that. I never really sat and spoke to Ernie, not because I don't like him or anything but just because I learned my lesson from establishing relationships with people that are close to your significant other. Although I never spoke to Ernie on that level, from the stories my Jacob told me, he was very involved in Mayra's life as well as in his mothers. I was able to experience this from the speech he made, which with all the tears and all the smiles and claps, was very well said.

I didn't feel that it was my place to get close to the casket, being that I didn't know her, but that didn't stop me from thinking many things. When I saw her from far, I thought to myself, that could be somebody I love at any given moment. It was of a reminder to myself to constantly remind my loves ones of the love I have for them.

Thursday, July 8, 2010

So it's official, I'm a big girl. I quit the library after six years, yes six years. I mean I can honestly say they were good to me, but as I get older I want more, and so i got more. I only have two days working at the new job, and it's not as bad as I thought it was going to be. The hours flew by, and before you know it I was seeing my honey bun.

I'm pretty excited about what the future has in store for me. This summer is pretty much done and over with, everything is going at the speed of light. I'm actually in a stage in life where I'm happy about everything, not to say that there aren't things that bother me from time to time, because there are many. I bothers me when I see people around me, more to say, those I love with much anger and pain. Yes, I know the world isn't perfect and thanks baby Jesus it's not, if it was, than life would be boring. I just feel it takes some longer to overcome their anger, while it takes other of us, a easier time adjusting to change.

Two very important people are going to be a year older. How exciting, and to think that they both have the same birthday is quite insane. My sister's and my Jacob's birthday are on July 21. I have an idea of what I want to get them but I just don't know if I would be able to.

Okay, now back to work..